My shell

Everything I say 

Everything I do 

Everything I think of 

Was mirrored from you 

 

I watched and observed 

From a very young age 

But everything you said 

Just put me in a cage 

 

You wouldn’t think it bad 

To pass a judgement or the look

Yet every word you said 

Tore through me like a hook 

 

But then you left 

And I finally felt like me 

I could grow as myself 

My own individuality 

 

It felt fun for a while 

To make up my own mind 

No breaths down my neck

No judgement to find 

 

But you came back 

Like I was expecting 

But something else came back 

Your everything 

 

So everything you say 

And everything  you do 

Came back to me 

Like a judgemental flu 

 

And everything you did 

And everything you said 

Still felt like daggers and swords 

So I  retreated to my bed 

 

So I sit and I wait 

In my own little shell 

Hiding the person 

I knew so well 

 

Because you shaped me 

I am who I am 

But I am that person 

Because alone…I finally can