Or am I just going through a horrible time?
Everything has just crept up on me and it sucks. I’m not gonna lie, it sucks.
Lately I’ve just been “not bothered”. But not in the way you think. It’s not laziness, it’s just me accepting that I can’t please everyone all the time. But why should I? Why should anyone?
Happiness has always been “my thing”. But people rely on me to be the optimistic, happy, always-there-to-cheer-someone-else-up-all-the-time kind of person. In my mind, I could never betray them by telling and showing them my true feelings.
I’ve just become exhausted. But with only two weeks left in school do I “shatter” my image and spill. . . or do I just grin my teeth and bare it?
Exams. Fake friends. Career. Toxic relationships. Universities. Family. Pressure.
I always want to share happiness. . . that hasn’t changed. I’m willing to be the positive person as long as I know the other party will be there for me. But I can hardly say that now. . .
And at the moment,
I’m not happy.